So, I am autistic, I dont really have friends except online, and i have a few other diagnoses like suspicion of schizophrenia and suspicion of psychosis. And, about once a year, I start walking down a hallway of insanity, ending in a big multiple day long paranoid attack- where I just lash our at someone and try to ruin their life because of some really insignificant thing. Last time I lashed out at someone because I misunderstood something, and I went down a paranoid spiral where I would try to ruin their life because I thought they wanted to ruin mine.
The time before I lashed out at someone and said that they were conspiring against me.
So, is there any way to prevent this? At least My therapist says I’m ok to go after the next few sessions. Also, I don’t want medication or go to a clinic.
From my understanding most of the pills you would take to calm you down take time to start working, like weeks to a month or more to fully do their work, so you can’t really take them in the manner that you are wanting.
I will say that I’m not expert by any means and I have have no first hand experience with the types of drugs used to treat the diagnosis you described, but I do read on such topics and have talked with friends that are on these sorts of medications about their experiences with them. So I’d defer to a doctor or other people with a similar history to yours if their experiences say different.
I suppose when considering taking medication that you have to weigh the negative side effects against the amount of negativity these outbursts cause you in the long run. Sadly, it’s also hard to say how any one medicine might effect you ahead of time, because these medicines are known to effect people quite differently even coming down to the exact dosage you might need vs what another person might need.
I hope you can find something that works for you, keep at it!