yess when I read that this is a common experience for aphants, I became pretty certain I’m an aphant too. crazy how people can do that on command

https://gitlab.futo.org/videostreaming/grayjay/-/blob/master/LICENSE.md

interesting, I haven’t seen a licence like that before. I wonder why they didn’t go with good ole GPL, as it prevents restrictive commercial use of software quite well.

welcome to the rabbit hole!

I spend a lot of my idle time “working” on different problems with projects I have going on and a lot of that involves “constructing” things in my mind.

I do, too! I guess in a different way though. A lot of aphants like to compare it to a computer that does not have a screen or GUI. The computer is there - also the graphics card, the images, the data - but nothing visual appears in your mind’s eye. I would say there are several things that are more difficult for me to do - but surprisingly people with aphantasia function just fine. Otherwise I would have known something is different with me way earlier.

it’s absolutely wild! I still struggle to imagine how other people can picture things.

I do! I visualize when I dream. But I can’t do it on command. This is how I realized I probably have aphantasia. I can never consciously visualize. I can think and conceptualize, but not ‘see’.

I don’t think I have an inner monologue. Also I have full Aphantasia. I can’t visually imagine an apple let alone rotate it in my mind.

Hey! When I got diagnosed, I felt quite miserable and lost. I’ve went through the pandemic very lonely and depressed. I still struggle with a lot of things. When I got diagnosed I remember I almost found it funny how little changed for me. I knew I was still the same person. I also felt strange to come to terms that a lot of the things I struggle with will never really go away.

But after a long time of reflecting/learning/forgiving I am starting to tell apart my talents and my weaknesses (which often are quite close to one another) and I feel like my life is getting a direction again. I recently made friends who accommodate me and I am working towards finding the kind of niche I can work in professionally.

I speak several languages but I grew up speaking only one.

I like spending time far away from my home country because abroad, people tend to be a lot more accommodating to my strangeness as they just assume I am this way because I am a foreigner. I can always ask for clarification, I am never pressured to understand everything right away, and I am never expected to be “a part” of the group. I am allowed - no - I am presumed to be different. Which takes away so much of the burden of masking.

I guess that is because people don’t understand what the fediverse is and why it exists. It is one of the foundational problems the fediverse aims to fix. Marginalized communities get all the tools and authority to protect themselves from hatred and abuse.

That would require people actually recommending specific websites

I actually think that’s the way to go! lemmy.blahaj.zone would be one example of a queer-inclusive community.

well in that case join an instance that doesn’t federate with queer/transphobe instances? This is the advantage of federated social networks - it gives full control to the people who run their own instances