I’ve been on and off with Linux for about 15 years and just want to counter some of the people trying to troubleshoot or criticize to say: it can be really tough.
We need our computers to work and we expect things to function correctly.
I’ve used dozens of distros over the years. I was a super early Arch adopter, mained Gentoo for about three years, ran my own BSD server for programming projects, and still maintain several small home Linux servers. And even I sometimes want to pull my hair out trying to get semi-new hardware working right in my distro of choice. I spent three hours today fighting Nvidia and sound drivers and eventually just had to give up on that machine after being told that what I want just flat out isn’t supported in Linux on the hardware I have.
Take a breath, set it aside until you’re ready to take another crack at it, and know that it’s a journey. You’ll get there or the software will catch up and meet you halfway. No shame in being frustrated :)
I truly wish I had the mental fortitude to push through the issues I have expressing myself to just, via sheer willpower, precisely describe my emotional state while in the middle of grappling with it.
An easy way to say “I’m not, I’m not sure what is wrong, and explaining anymore than this is going to somehow make it worse in my mind. What I really want is for you to pick up on the fact that I’m struggling and just be supportive but explaining all that in this moment is overwhelming.” Even getting that out can be difficult in the moment because internally I haven’t unkinked the knot enough to figure it out. Sometimes I’m not yet aware that I’m not okay.
So “I’m fine” comes out.
Thankfully my wife is very used to paying attention to the nonverbal cues of her husband (me) after many years of happy marriage. Communication is so much more than just words. If you’re in tune enough to ask then it’s safe to assume something is up.
Sorry your relationships have been with people like me. Hope you find that right person for you :)