Fix the stupid little things first.
Do you have a friend? Ask them if they would stick around for a few while you fix a bunch of stupid little problems you can’t find the motivation to do by yourself. You’ll need them only for structure, or maybe the occasional stimulus “OK, now write that email”, not to do any of it.
Most people can relate. Ask them directly, don’t beat around the bush.
I share the same sentiment. Grabbed a laptop last week to be able to wfh somewhere else and entertain myself too, and to try if I couldn’t get gaming to work on Linux, and had that feeling of curiosity back about what is new and how everything works. The feeling was lost sometime after Windows 7, and replaced with a slight feeling of dread about where everything got misplaced in this newest shiniest iteration of Windows.
Couldn’t be happier with fiddling with distros!
I got the questionnaire and an interview and the psychiatrists said, yeah that’s probably ADHD.
The real epiphany I had when I went into a group therapy setting and suddenly I was somewhere where everyone fucking understood me! That’s how I came to actually believe, yeah, it’s probably ADHD.
However the diagnosis turned out to be somewhat irrelevant, what’s relevant is to change yourself so that you can live with yourself.
Just power-hungry generals? Anything more to the story?