Posting this because I can’t really talk to my family or whatever. I have one main friend but I don’t think she cares on a deeper level so it always just feels like I’m alone. Who do you guys turn to for help? It’s always been a struggle for me, it’s like no one is really there. It feels like I’m living the same day over and over again and I’m not contempt with my own thoughts and it’s hard for me to get over it. I’m not sure if I’m just depressed and I’m so good at hiding it or I’m just so numb to everything. I forget so much of my past and it’s so hard for me to sit with myself and figure out what the fuck is wrong with me. I just lost something so good in my life because I made a big mistake and that’s also something I won’t get over. I can’t win things back and it’s sad to accept reality of things. Sorry for this depressing as post but I don’t have anyone to really talk to
I hate being in pain, everyone does haha. So I sound like a hypocrite. I feel ready for a relationship, or atleast thought I did but now that it’s over I’m just broken all over again. That was the first feeling of readiness I had in years. I always love more than I receive and I think that’s what fucks me up in the end
Nah don’t worry about that. Everyone is entitled to a bit of wallowing after heart break lol. Besides, we all get hurt but yours is fresh and real and not just a bad memory yet. And it’s not a competition either, your feelings are just as valid as anyone else’s. I just hope that being able to talk it out at least helped ease the pressure a little bit.
And so much for my suggestion about taking a break lol. I’m sorry that this happened to you. Life fucking sucks lol. I’m all out of fortune cookies now but I know that love fucking hurts, so I understand your pain.