This might look stupid and completely insignificant compared to other people posting here, but this community looks the most appropriate to ask, so here is the situation : sometimes when I wake up (and only then), i have huge, existential fear (panic) that I will die. It lasts for a dozen of seconds, it’s the only thing i can think about. The fear is profound, and infinitely large, there is nothing i can do to stop it myself.
Then, all becomes normal. The fear disappears and i am back to being a functioning individual.
The fact that it happens regularly, with a strict pattern (only at wakeup), tells me it is some chemical sude effect of sleeping (?)
Just for the record, i am aware this is nothing to worry about, i am not trying to get attention lol. i just wanted to know if anyone experiences the same
It’s not and it doesn’t, mental stability is relative from one person to the other, your issue is and should be treated just as seriously as anyone else’s.
With that out of the way, are you dreaming at all beforehand? Specifically, anything related to loss of control, or deep anxiety, or do you have something major going on in your life? You don’t have to answer here, but those types of things can be enough to cause something like this, I think.
Not currently going through it, but I remember going through something similar during high-school. We got a new Chemistry teacher who really didn’t like my “love the concepts, hate the math” approach and made it clear that she was out to “fix” that (ideally, by holding me back a year). I remember waking up every single day with a brief (2-3 seconds, with the rest being the trail-off) shock of sheer terror and anxiety. I didn’t need to dream about it, I didn’t need to have Chem classes that day, even happened during the weekend. And I remember it stopping at around the time when I gave up trying to understand what I was studying and accepted my fate.
This is why I asked, maybe you have something similar in your life, some sort of overarching worry. And it’s not even necessary to be consciously aware of it, your subconscious has it all covered.
Haha sorry for your chemistry experience, i regularly still dream about math and German exams, even if that was like a decade ago, and i scored well!
But yeah might be that. First time i remember it happening, was during covid. Then it happens now and then without a clear “stress stimulus”
Thanks! Managed to pull through by the skin of my teeth, luckily life forced a Charisma secondary build on me, so Speech was a dump stat. She wanted to see me suffer, so I gave her more than she could handle - got a passing average by the end, good enough for me!:))
Yep, totally makes sense to have a Pandemic as a source. And, to be perfectly honest, there are plenty of valid reasons nowadays, even if one only pays attention in a passing manner.
Another thing which came to me, might wanna talk to your GP/ a GP about potential thyroid implications. I used to have massive anxiety episodes and every medical doctor who checked me up (from dentist to cardiologist) told me to check my thyroid, as apparently hyperthyroidism may push the body into overdrive and it looks a lot like an anxiety attack. Mine were “just” anxiety attacks, but it still felt better to check that off the list, at least.