ChatGPT4 translation:
I am Gorobets Anton Igorevich. I worked as a missile designer at the Main System Design Bureau of the PVO “Almaz-Antey” concern of academician A.A. Raspletin. A few days ago, a missile that I helped to make flew to Kharkov, to the house where my grandmother lived on my mother’s side. She died. I could not live with this. What is happening now is horror and nightmare. I refuse to take part in this war, but I can’t bring back my grandmother. Please forgive me, I can’t do this anymore.
He didn’t shoot himself because he thought that was the “smart move”, he did it out of pain and despair. Some just lack basic human compassion.
Correct, which is why he killed himself. He lost his grandmother and now rest rest of his family lost him and his grandmother.