I’ve taken Adderall for the past year and tried some other stimulants. So far adderall is tolerated better by my body and and wallet compared to other meds.

Improvements: Follow-through with tasks since I can hold an idea or thought to the end. Being okay with good enough, I am not fighting my self to make it perfect and just move on. I can read a book. Math is actually interesting since it doesn’t feel like I am looking at a shattered mirror of scattered lessons. I am suprised about how much stuff I have retained from school but couldn’t utilize. My handwriting is great and doesnt feel like a chore to make it legible. Conversations feel like I’m actually in the room and participating. I don’t know how I did customer service and retail before.

What did not improve: My short term memory still sucks. Playing 20 questions to get a super simple concept out is shorter but still happens. Procratination is just different, now I do some productive stuff while procrastinating so maybe it’s an improvement. While doing things is easier, the planning phase of anything is a game of moving deck chairs on the Titanic and I just improvise in the end. Time is still an illusion and holy fuck I’m late for work.

One of the things that didn’t improve for me, keeping records of things.

I use KeePassXC its free works on what I use. The encrypted list of passwords is synced with my phone twice a day with Syncthing. Chrome had a fit with the android app to I switched to Firefox after. I selfhost it because it’s free and I know enough to troubleshoot any problems.

I put together a shadowbox last year for a client and had fun making it. I wrote a calculator in Python to calculate where to make the cuts so I could just fold up the walls and documented every step so I don’t have to struggle next time I make something like that again. Now the clien has come back with the same exact project and I have zero interest in doing it despite making everything dead simple. It was an unusual project for the shop I work at, very custom, and I established my self as the guy that does the weird custom projects. Now I am the guy doing the weird custom projects. :(