I just recently started taking generic vyvanse. I noted an immediate change at 20mg. I was happier, more productive, less distracted, no depression, etc. Of course, after about 2 weeks or so my symptoms started to return, so I got an increase to 30. After a month I experienced the same and got bumped to 40. Two months into the 40mg and I am starting to feel like it isnt working.
One of my go-to avoidance routines is doom scrolling or internet surfing for light porn. I have noted that during the past week I am almost compelled to jump on the computer and start searching or scrolling through Lemmy.
I am just wondering if this is a normal progression. At what point does the increasing of dosage stop?
Gotta throw in that I started gabapentin for my anxiety this weekend too, and not sure that is helping or hurting.
Overall, I am just really feeling confused. I am not sure I trust my own assessment of the effect of the meds. This is a lonely place because I dont have anyone around me with experience regarding ADHD medications, so any input is greatly appreciated.
When I was getting settled on my dose the doctor told me to keep upping the dose until things got worse rather than better. And there was defintely a point (54mg xaggatin, a slow release concerta type) where it was too much, I didnt want to relax I just wanted to get shit done. I’m sure it could have been efficient but it didn’t feel like me, and felt kinda stressy. So I’ve been on the dose below that (36mg) for a couple of years.
The amazing novelty wears off, and i can go back to my old avoidance routines, especially if I’m tired or sick, or anxious about something. But when my mood is good, and I’m taking care of myself, I can be efficient and focus on stuff well, while before that wad almost impossible unless I had a last minute deadline to panic me into focus.
The way I think about it is the drugs don’t make it easy for me to focus, they just make it possible. So now I can do all those things people said before about breaking tasks down, and setting manageable goals and stuff to make tasks achievable. It’s not easy, but it isn’t easy for most people. It’s just no longer impossible. But it takes a lot relearning, trying out things that wouldn’t have worked before and it doesn’t always work. But it’s so much better than before.